Stupid stuff of Today

I found out that my aunt is pissed off for a joke I made. i was joking, then she starts saying I always talked shit to her, and I am always rude. Yeah well, whatever, she isn't really my aunt anyways.

Then there is my boyfriend. My boyfriend expects me to clean every 3 hours, clean after him all the time, its so frustrating. I left for the first time not worrying about him. But I made it a great day today. I made it happy.

Today I needed a me day.

I wanna see my friend but she is so upset with me i don't know what I should do.

Sometimes I keep thinking, is life really livable?

Maybe my uncle daryle had the right idea. he committed suicide. Ive been thinking about that. It seems everyone is mad at me for something stupid. I am not mad at everyone for anything. I am trying to be supportive of my friends choices, but they can't be supportive of mine? what the hell? One of those days where I just want to give up... But I can't, not just yet. I got to make my life better, happier, and an adventure. my life has got to be an adventure. I will do better, I will be a better person. That is my dream right now. Someone who can make my family happy, and not mad at me all the time. The type of person who friends will beg to come see me. And not me beg them to go hang out.

I want to be a better person. But sometimes, it seems like no one wants me in their lives anyways.